Thursday, August 21, 2008

Scheduling Life and Death

I remember thinking, "Last year at this time, I was 8 months pregnant. I couldn't control my schedule of when I would actually go into labor. I knew it would happen soon. But when? I had to trust God's timing. Now, with my mother on a ventilator, I have no way in knowing when she will pass away. Life and death is inevitable. And, it is on God's time table."


Elizabeth Channel said...

Yuck. I wish I had something more profound to say. James 1:12? Still yuck. I am sorry for what you are going through.

I thought about you when talking to a friend today with a father in late stage Lou Gherigs.

Author of Crazy Jug said...

Interesting. So, 1st of all, I really am not that dark and dismal that I sit around and think of dreadful thoughts all day. I just really want to capture this part of my life. As I go through these struggles and turn to God, I really do feel called to write publicly about them. I don't want to sugar coat it but just tell it like it was... Thanks for reading and your input!

Author of Crazy Jug said...

Second of all, my father is also going through a brain disorder similar to Lou Gherigs. He stared getting really clutzy about a year or so ago. Now, he needs a wheel chair and he slurs after about 3:00 in the afternoon. He had to retire early and has a difficult time tending to his garden b/c he can hardly stand without help. We have no idea what is wrong with him and no idea how deteriorated he will be by Christmas! Boy oh boy, am I Debby Downer or what? I should change my blog to be called Debby Downer!