What Do I Want?

I went to the movies with a couple of girl friends last night to watch The Women starring Meg Ryan and many many women stars. In fact there isn't a man in one scene of the entire movie.

There were layers of interesting themes ranging from marriage struggles, mother and daughter bonding, friendships, relationships, careers, pop culture, party ideas, etc., it would have made a perfect blog all in itself! The characters were richly developed given the full spectrum of issues revealed. There was one main theme that I found most intriguing and inspiring: WHAT DO I WANT?

Meg Ryan played Mary, the perfect one. No doubt her character's name was to reflect the ideal Biblical mother of God, Mary. Her only character flaw was that she did nothing for herself. She always lived her life for others. In the midst of hosting a ladies luncheon in her home, she sat around with her lady friends and commented that she was contemplating on having another baby. She just thought that is what she was supposed to do. She thought she only wanted one child, but maybe she wants another. She knew there was a void in her soul, she thought she was supposed to fulfill it by bearing a child. But, fate won over and she finally fell into a season in her life when she was forced to reflect on who she was and who was she to become.

She did everything for everyone else though she was given zero respect. Her husband cheated on her, her daughter couldn't connect with her and her best friend even sold her out. It had to take gut-wrenching betrayal by these people who she loved the most to finally force her to stop and meditate on what she really wanted. She made a wall of everything that inspired her to help her find out what it was she wanted.

I am going to stop blogging now. I want to make a similar shrine for myself. This past year, so much has changed for me. I don't know if the bottom fell out from beneath my feet, or if I am just on a higher ground, ready to redefine my dreams, my goals, what I want.

Stay tuned for future posts when I share with you my revelations. I encourage you too to dwell on this question. Love yourself enough to know what you want! Dream again.